Virginia is for LOVERS...

After my first interview failure, I realised I don't take to failures as easily as I tot I would.

For someone as heck care abt such things as me, it is seriously affecting my mood and my appetite and my motivation to study.

I feel so sianz now I juz wanna go slp, even though my initial plan was to mug (happily) thru the nite. I was looking forward so much to getting it, soooooo much, tat now there's tis unbelievably heavy feeling inside me.

dammit! wat went wrong man. i have this uncontrollable urge to put all blame on the interviewer becoz

1) he's not from HR (wat the heck!)

2) he doesnt noe how to phrase questions or ask questions.

3) he doesnt even noe how the system in spore works (he's fr India) and kept askin me wat position i am in my course, like whether i'm top 10 or top 20. and i patiently kept explaining to him tat we have no such system of ranking the students, tho we do divide our degree into different classes based on our results, and he juz kept shooting me looks of disbelief, as if i ranked last in my course and i juz dun wanna admit. -_-

4) he was not paying attention to me! juz seconds ago i was describing abt my job as honorary general secretary in engin club, and den seconds later i mentioned again, and he asked "sorry, but wat's tat?"

5) he juz SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

I am starting to develop very intense feelings of hatred towards this man that i've only met once in my entire life, and prob wun get to meet again (considering i'm alr booted out fr the selection process).

prob part of the reason why i failed is becoz of my lack of ability. but he JUST HAS to accept some blame! makes me feel better... heehee... and anyway he does suck as an interviewer.

sigh.

heavy feeling.

still there.

i cant believe i didnt get it.

it's the last stage.

i cant believe i didnt get it.

P.S. I dun think it's very nice to the company if I divulge the name of the company, so I'm not gonna do it.