I remember this conversation i had with my friend a few days ago... where we were complaining abt how our intelligence level seemed to have gone down as we grow older.

we seemed to be able to capture things faster, and learn things faster when we were younger.

i think i read somewhere before where ur fastest rate of learning capacity will be when you're a toddler. Toddlers have yet to develop a complete sense of rational and cognitive thinking, nobody has yet to teach them how to construct proper train of thoughts, how to link and relate one thing to another. And yet, some things they do are juz amazing.

have u ever placed a template with holes of different shapes, and blocks of different shapes in front of a toddler before? just place them in front of him/her without telling him/her wat to do with it. and it's utterly amazing how the toddler, this 1 or 2 year old, would juz automatically try to fit the blocks with different shapes into the hole with the correct shape.

how do they even noe they're supposed to do tat? and not juz throw the blocks randomly around them?

the human brain is something fascinating and amazing, and probably the best construct in this world. whoever is up there, who created and made us, He is totally wonderful.

I'm not christian, neither am i catholic or buddhist or taoist, or any of the other religions tat exist in Singapore, or for tat matter, in the world. I'm a free thinker.

But that does not mean I do not believe in someone up there.

I do.

I just don't really take in the possibility that there are actually so many "gods" that exist in this world, from all the different religions. I believe there is only one, and he probably takes different forms, so that human beings can have different sets of religious beliefs to cater to, so that human beings can find peace and faith in their respective religions, so that human beings have something or someone to turn to everytime they sin and they have no idea how to atone for their sins, so that human beings have someone or something to turn to everytime they want something but that certain thing is not in their control (eg a smooth plane flight).

essentially all the religious beliefs, be it catholic or christian or buddhist, are all advocating and teaching the same things, u noe? it's all about peace within yourself, it's all about holding onto faith and believing in yourself, it's all about doing good, it's all about not sinning.

and so i always find it bemusing and laughable everytime i hear friends of different religions arguing fervently among themselves about which religion is better and which religion is more "true". it's so silly and stoopid. but sometimes, they juz dun realise it, u see.

i believe in "fate" and i believe that "sometimes things are juz meant to be this way".

When accidents happen and innocent lives are taken away for no rhyme or reason, it really suck. and when there's no one u can blame for those accidents, it sucks even more. coz it always makes human beings feel better when there's something or someone they can put the blame on, isnt it? but sometimes "things are juz meant to be that way" and there's really nothing anyone can do abt it.

maybe they happen becoz we have to be taught how to cherish and treasure what we already have. maybe children who has been screaming and shouting at their parents the day before, stumble onto an article where a child lose her parents in an accident, will rush back home to their distraught parents, apologise and tell them how much they love them.

maybe at the same time when u're arguing and quarreling with ur boyfren or gerfren, the news on tv happen to be showing how a ger lose her fiance in a diving mishap, and den mebbe u'll juz stop short of the quarrel and bring ur boyfren or gerfren into ur arms.

u noe, these things happen. and mebbe they happen sometimes to teach us how to stop taking everything in life for granted. if everything in this world is pre-empted and no accidents would ever happen, and no illnesses or diseases will ever occur, will u be a better person or a worse person? will u still tell ur boyfren/gerfren tat u love him/her every single day coz u dunno wat will happen the next day? will u still try to be as nice and filial as u can to ur parents becoz u noe they're getting old and u dunno how many years u have left with them?

i think sometimes, things happen in this world to make everyone a better person. and i think that's wat we should all believe in.

i believe in "everything happens for a reason".

mebbe it's juz easier to live life when u believe in that, u noe. when u believe that everything happens for a reason, it's so much easier for u to see past certain things and to find peace in life, and to not brood over things or indulge in self-pity.

during the numerous months tat i got rejected by companies, i juz tot to myself mebbe something better out there is awaiting me, mebbe these companies are juz not suitable for me, mebbe whoever is up there, juz wants to teach me how to handle rejections, and den stand up and try harder, so that i wont juz break down when i face the Real World.

after the failures of certain few relationships, i juz tot to myself mebbe someone better is out there waiting for me, mebbe those guys are not The One, and that explains the failures, becoz i need to end all these r/s before i can continue my search for The One. mebbe whoever is up there juz wants me to learn all the perils of r/s from all the failed ones, mebbe He juz wants me to learn how to handle certain problems tat commonly exist in r/s, so tat i can handle them properly in my r/s with The One. mebbe He's juz making me feel depressed and utterly miserable for those few months so tat when i finally meet The One, i'll try all i can to cherish and treasure the r/s becoz i would not want it to end up like the past few failed ones.

so sometimes when hardships hit u, or when failures hit u, juz remember that the more u go thru, the stronger u become, and the better person u become. and when you're finally able to stand up and face the world, with a weary but a satisfied and happy smile, you are the one that ppl will admire, and not those ppl who succeed on first try. and i always believe that the hardships we're goin thru, juz served to make us cherish and treasure whatever we have now in our life, and whatever we're gonna have in the future.

i never hope to inspire ppl with my words, becoz i dun think i'm tat good with words yet. but i do hope whatever i've said above has helped some of my frens (or acquaintances or anyone reading for the matter) who have been meeting obstacles again and again recently (esp with job search) to find their way back again. =)


This video here shows one of the most touching songs i've ever heard.

I cried when lester played this song for me on the guitar one nite in his room. maybe it's the way he looked at me. maybe it's the tune. maybe it's just the lyrics.

it's the perfect song to tell another person how much he means to you. and i think it's the perfect song to be playing on a wedding coz it's called "Till the End". u noe, like the wedding vows... =)

it's by David Tan, a Singaporean.





it's so sweet and heartfelt, i think i'm goin to break my "public-blogging" rule AGAIN, by saying these:

I noe how much we've gone through in the past 2 years and 10 months, and i noe how much we've gone through recently. and many a times i had wanted to give up so much, but i'm so thankful tat the one i'm goin through all these with is you. becoz you have so much faith in you, it's amazing. and most importantly, you actually believed in us constantly without fail, even at times when i've stopped believing. and i know deep inside, that that is wat actually keep us going. as cliche as this is goin to sound, u touch a certain part in my soul, tat i dun think anyone has ever succeeded reaching before. and i love u so much, so this is for you dear, becoz u deserve it.


that is the lyrics for "Till the End".

and i juz realise why i love it so much, becoz i can relate every single line of it. with you.

yes, even the part "all my friends around me, say you'd be gone too soon". haha...